“I should be happy”
I repeated to myself in my head. I kept on repeating it to myself as that internal monologue turned into external sobs.”
This is honestly one of my favorite things I have ever written .
It’s so raw …. A part of me feared having others read it
( which is something that RARELY happens , I’m an open book when it comes to sharing my story through writing . )
But through a month I’ve deeply struggled with this kind of grief .
This piece says all I couldn’t verbalize when I tried to explain how I was feeling to those around me .
If you are experiencing the same thing . I hope this piece lets you know you are not alone .
And remind whoever needs it that
“ Through the months that turn into years, you grow.
You change and learn to live side by side with a pain most would claim to be unbearable. A grief of constant losses and what could’ve beens that would and could be seen as all-consuming.
But you realize only great love can cause a great loss.
And this pain has taught you there is so much still left in life that is worthy to love and to live for.”
I love this piece and really hope it can help people dealing with this kind of grief
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